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I'm now a law student.
law school is SO difficult! i never expected this to be so hard! it's a different world out here! The academic work is harder, the rules are more rigid, the professors are stricter, and the pressure to excel is stronger... as i said, its a different world out here...
but you know what, i'm really learning a lot here. for one thing, this kind of lifestyle helps me to grow in my prayerful life. as in everyday you really pray that sana hindi ka matawag sa recitation hehe or kaya sana wala na sana less than 10 court cases nalang ipabasa sa inyo (in my dreams...hay...), or kaya sana absent nalang muna yung prof nyo hehe
seriously though, i feel God's grace and presence here. it is true that in adversity you will feel God more. and i'm a living proof of that. i feel God reassuring me everyday to take things one day at a time, to not feel too pressured and that He will never leave my side. he even make small miracles, like my prof will skip my classcard so that i will not be called to recite or that i will be given questions that i can easily answer. these moments of grace just reminds me that i'm not alone in this new path that i took. that God is always here in my side, in my back and in my front guiding me all the way.
i really don't know what's going to happen to me after a year. the mortality rate in law school is so high that the number of freshmen students are expected to be cut in half by sophomore year. in fact, i already know of some people who quit already. kamusta naman ang encouragement di ba? 
but knowing that God is just here by my side makes me feel a bit better (a bit palang kasi kinakabahan pa din talaga ako)knowing that whatever happens there is still a divine plan. and knowing that i am never alone in whatever path i will take.
it's been a month palang pero grabe ang adjustments na i have to undergo. Bawal na ang pasaway, bawal na ang makulit. bawal na ang taglish na recitation, bawal na ang pumasok sa klas ng hindi nagbabasa, bawal na ang pangiti-ngiti lang, bawal na ang nakaupo habang nagre-recite, bawal ang nagtatanong sa prof (sila lang ang may karapatan na magtanong), bawal na ang magpaxerox ng book (illegal un! ), bawal na ang walang dalang libro kapag pumapasok sa klas, bawal na ang makipagchikahan sa kaklase while in klas, bawal magtanong ng "can you please repeat the question sir?" (bokya ka na agad nun sa recit! totoo ito! nangyari ito sa seatmate ko!) bawal ang pangit ang sulat, zero ka na sa quiz kasi hindi nila mabasa ang sagot mo, bawal ang hindi tumatayo kapag pumapasok ang prof sa classroom, bawal ang magpaikot-ikot na sagot dapat straight to the point lang, bawal ang tumitingin sa notes kapag nagrerecite, bawal ang hindi marunong magmemorize, bawal ang hindi marunong gumamit ng signpen at fountain pen kasi yun lang ang pwedeng gamitin na writing pen sa exams (sosyal!  ), bawal ang hindi marunong gumamit ng library, bawal ang walang tiyaga sa pagbabasa...
basta madami pang bawal pero for now yan nalang muna ang isshare ko. magaaral pa ako eh. have to read 15 cases over the weekend pa. 
good night guys. 
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